just a shitty end to my day. no matter how many years will pass i will never trust the guy that i used to call my best friend. It is one of those things where you can’t tell if they made a mistake or if you just really never knew them. It’s hard to figure out what will be better the safety in seclusion or gambling on a friend. I’ve learned over the years how to hide what i feel. I’m over trusting and i try to do what i can for people. I’m also indesicive. When these two people failed me i let one back and i tottally secluded one. Should you punish the two involved equally. Or do you try to figure out who initiated it. It takes two to tango but both can’t lead. Since it happened i really haven’t been the same. I feel more bitter and empty. Sometimes like tonight my heart pounds, i can’t help but feel angry. I can’t say i am not an angry person, but i ussually let things go quickly. This is always there taunting me. i play nice but when he is there i always want to hurt him. I think this deep seated anger hurts me more than anyone. i dont want to push anyone away but i don’t want to be hurt again. would it be better if i had never known. They say ignorance is bliss. I always say, if your  gonna piss on my parade atleast have the courtesy to call it rain.

That is all